I want to thank all of my friends, new, and old who made this Anthrocon super special. I came home and I knew I wanted to make a record of it so I'd remember this one forever. You guys all rock and if you made it this far then I love you tons.
My fingers are ready to drop off my hands after this report and my feet are finally starting to come back to life after walking around all weekend. See y'all at Furbowl and FAU guys. =3
Life lately has been random bouts of depression and loneliness followed by me trying to pep-talk myself back up.
Work isn't helping. While I understand the customers feelings and hesitations, their rudeness in trying to avoid me simply saying "Hello, can I help you" is driving my enjoyment of this job to an all time low.
I picked up Little Inferno on Steam the other day. Wanted something different and not too expensive. Heard really good things about it and I gotta say it's pretty good.
It's a game that's easy to miss the point of. Sure all you're doing in the game is burning things, but really all you're doing is burning things. The end of the game sort of wraps up the themes that were coming through throughout the main body of the game and it kind of sticks with you as you look back realizing, wow I really was just doing that.
Totally recommend the game. My terrible review notwithstanding.
Also got hooked on Railroad Tycoon 2. Call me nostalgic but I think that game is one of the great classics of PC Gaming.
Burning through the main campaign right now. Trying to bring together Germany with a big railroad network.
It gets lots of fun when near the end game you have 80+ trains running all over the map, it's all just running along, and you can step back and be like "I designed that."
I dislike my job. But I do enjoy being able to pay my bills. What a conundrum.
They're giving us a new schedule where we're working 44 hours instead of the 40 we are now. This won't really affect my furry schedule or anything like that since my co-workers are pretty chill about letting me go early if I need to. But I kind of feel like the extra hours, combined with the extra work we have to do selling furniture now (the furniture salesperson recently left the company and she hasn't been replaced yet) kind of makes me want to solicit a raise.
Not to mention the rate of inflation has made what I made then about $150 less than what I make now.
But then work starts tossing around the word layoffs and each day I see my boss he just talks about how crummy business is. And the "numbers" they give us for my store to be profitable sits at $2200 in sales each day. We're lucky to crack $1000 in a day.
I kind of want to just quit and go to school full time, or even quit and go for a part time job somewhere. But I'm scared to mess with my finances. I feel like I'm on a tight rope already. The only real expenditures I can alter are for my entertainment and food and I feel like those are the only things that bring any variety to my life. I don't eat steak that often (once every few months) and my biggest protein is chicken (although I can make a smashing lemon pepper chicken, tell you what). And my entertainment consists of mostly eating out with friends, or the odd video game here and there.
Hopefully this refinance on my house takes a little stress off that big mortgage payment each month. Going from 5% to 3.5% and getting a much better homeowners insurance rate out of it. After that is finally wrapped up I'll go over my finances and really try to get everything down to a science.
I need to get better at planning things. I'm too often improvising with important things in my life.
My weekends are Tuesday and Wednesday. I only get off today since I had to switch around my Wednesday to get off Sunday for the LAN party and Furthemore.
So a 6 day work week coming up. Bleh.
My refinance should be complete on the 24th hopefully. I'm ready to sign my life away again for another 30 years.
Today is filled with pretty simple stuff, laundry, dishes, eating, studying, and fucking around at the end of it. I woke up late so a lot of my day has been thrown away already. Stayed up way to late playing some Railroad Tycoon 2. :P
Kickball game tomorrow! First one, and I'm still kind of sore from practice on Saturday. Did I mention I joined a kickball league last month?
I'm fucking 24 man. I'll be 25 in a few more months. This is my time to fucking shine.
LET'S GET FUCKING MOTIVATED.
WHAT ARE MY END GOALS?
2 MILLION IN SAVINGS TIGER STRIPED LAMBORGHINI (FUCK THE HATERS) MY OWN LAN ARCADE
HOW AM I GOING TO FUCKING GET THERE?
A+ CERTIFICATION NETWORK+ CERTIFICATION REAL FINANCING AND ACCOUNTING, NO MORE OF THIS PAYCHECK TO PAYCHECK BULLSHIT. FUCKING SCHEDULING. GET A SCHEDULE. FUCKING KEEP TO IT. BE FUCKING KITT3NS. OWN THE FURST STATE. OWN YOUR FUCKING MEETS. DELEGATE SHIT. BE THE MAN IN CHARGE. WHEIGHT: 180 SEX: ALL THE TIME MUSCLES: HELL YES! COOKING: DO IT MAN, GOD DAMNED GORDON RAMSEY. DEGREE: UNIVERSITY OF DELAWARE. SHOW THOSE FUCKS YOU MEAN BUSINESS. JOB: FUCKING NOT WORKING FOR THAT GOD DAMNED MATTRESS STORE FUCKING ADAPTING AND EVOLVING AND NEVER FUCKING STOPPING.
GRAB LIFE BY THE REINS. YOU'VE FALLEN INTO FORTUNE. LET'S FUCKING OWN IT.
FUCKING OWN THAT SHIT!
YOU FUCKING DESERVE IT. YOU HAVE SO MUCH GOD DAMNED POTENTIAL. LET'S FUCKING ROCK WITH IT.
8 HOURS OF SLEEP. NO BULLSHITTING WITH THIS ONE. 8 HOURS EACH NIGHT.
WEEKDAYS BE ASLEEP BY 12. AWAKE BY 8. OR FUCKING ELSE.
WEEKENDS = FRIDAY SATURDAY. PARTY YOU FUCK.
SUNDAY IS HOUSE CLEAN DAY. LAUNDRY, DISHES. GET IT DONE ON SUNDAY.
COOKING: PLAN DINNER. BUY ENOUGH FOR EVERYTHING ELSE.
A+ CERTIFICATION: SET ASIDE 1 1/2 HOURS EACH WEEKDAY AND STUDY THAT SHIT. I WANT THAT CERTIFICATION BY THE END OF JULY. IT'S GOING TO BE MY GOD DAMNED 25TH BIRTHDAY PRESENT. TO MY FUCKING SELF. YES FUCK YOU.
There are so many things I want to learn, want to do, want to explore...
But damn it all if I'm not wheighed down by work, furry obligations, and general responsibilities that any free time I do have I want to spend playing video games so that I can escape for a little while.
I enjoy work (mostly) and furry (defintely) and all in all having the responsibilites I do... but I look around and I'm only 24 1/2, I want more.